Friday, September 27, 2013

I AM

Excuse me. I am not. But don't worry...I know I Am. :)

If you've already read/heard Louie Giglio discuss this topic, the underlying concept of what I'm about to say won't be new to you, but perhaps the applications will be.

Lately, my life has been confuddled with a multitude of different activities and academics. And all it's done for me is pile into a big heap of worry, stress, and uncertainty. I know, great way to start your senior year.



I find myself asking questions. Who am I, really? What was I made to be? What will I study? Where will I go? What will I do? When will it happen? Can I afford it? Will I be happy?

My thoughts whiz by me at a million miles a minute. And ultimately I end up completely exhausted, unable to sleep, and more than a little stressed. What good is it all doing me?

Frankly, none. But recently I found encouragement in Louie Giglio's excellent book, I am not but I know I AM. That is, if God's name is I AM -- he is goodness, he is greatness, he is power, he is love, he is strength, he is kindness, he is mercy, he is justice -- then my name must be I am not -- not good, not great, not powerful, not loving, not strong, not kind, not merciful, not just. But God in his excellent greatness has called me out of darkness into his marvelous light. It reminds me of Plato's cave, only I'm no longer chained down: I've been set free! What's more amazing, I am part of a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, that I may declare the excellencies of him who did this great work. (1 Peter 2:9) But the most mind-blowing, humbling part of the whole deal is that God -- the one who is all goodness, greatness, power, love, strength, kindness, mercy, and justice -- sent his own Son to die for me the worst death, a death stripped of all goodness, greatness, power, love, strength, kindness, mercy, or justice. He looked on him as if my sin was his, and he looked to the future. He saw me, and despising his own Son, he loved me. I, dead in my sins, sick with a gross and unsightly nature, was looked on and loved by this great God. This God who is everything. His name says it all: I AM. And I have to realize, with much humility and gratitude, that I am not. 

Whoa.

So, as I've gone through my daily life, I've been asking myself how God, in his omnipotent greatness, truly satisfies my desires. As I study like some kind of SAT-maniac, and begin to stress over not having high scores, I pray aloud, Lord, you are the source of all wisdom, and I am not. I trust you. My day goes on, and suddenly I panic about my debate case. And I pray, Lord, you are the winner of every argument, and I am not. Speak to me. Again, I can find peace. Then, I realize I have to determine a college application and nervousness overwhelms me. But the Lord is good to remind me of himself, and I pray, Lord, you are the great shepherd, and I am not. Lead me.

These little acknowledgements of the Lord are not magic spells, but they do amazing work on my heart. Each time I remind myself of the Lord's presence and relevance in my life, I realize all over again just how beautiful it is that HE IS GOD, and I am not. 

Many of you will remember the song, "He's got the whole world in his hands." That song was my favorite as a child. I loved to sing it over and over and do all the motions with it:

He's got the whole world in his hands
He's got the whole world in his hands
He's got the whole world in his hands
He's got the whole world in his hands

Looking at it, the song seems pretty repetitive. After you've sung it a few times, you get the idea and you're ready for it to end. But I think there's something profound to learn here: God really does have the whole world in his hands. Because God's name is I AM, and thus, we are not. Even so, he chooses in his goodness to keep the whole world in his hands.

Somehow that's easier to believe as a child. A child's parents feed him, clothe him, shelter him, take him everywhere. His troubles consist of scraped knees and broken Lego sets. Then, at some point, he realizes the world is much bigger than he will ever be able to handle. More than a thousand of him could handle. More than the whole world can handle.

It's no wonder John Newton wrote his infamous hymn, "Amazing Grace." Newton was a slave ship captain, an adulterer, and a drunk. His youth was spent on women and wine. Then, in a
terrible storm, God caught Newton's attention. In months, Newton went from being a slave to sin to being a preacher of freedom, both man's and God's. Newton was considered the worst kind of heathen: no man on earth could have turned around his life. And, God didn't have to do it. After all, he is God. But he did it for Newton.

And he did it for me. And for so many of you. So my stresses come. Tomorrow, I'll study for the SAT. I'll research for debate. I'll work on essays for college applications. I may even do some political work. And you know what? God's name is still I AM.

Soli Deo Gloria!

~Meridian
[i am not]

Friday, July 19, 2013

First Grade Theology

Just finished VBS. Memorable quotes:

"You may now marry your lovely wedded husband."

"God made man upside right"

"God gave his only forgotten son."

Referring to a verse saying "Therefore God exalted him..." a child said, "For there God exasperated him."

And the best one...

Did you know that Jesus died for our starvation?

So, to sum up a first-grade theology God made man upside right, but we sinned, so he gave his only forgotten son. For there, God exasperated him, so that he would die for our starvation.

Yep. I had an awesome week. =D ♥

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

This is absolutely fascinating!

A history of words of negation. Very cool!

Not can impart a subtlety of meaning to speech, as in the chastising ‘are you not home yet?’ compared with the query ‘are you home yet?’ But little do many of us realise that the word has a fascinating linguistic history, involving a pattern of change that has been echoed again and again in languages across the globe. 
  Read the entire article here.

~Meridian

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Words

"It is in vain, sir, to extenuate the matter. Gentlemen may cry, Peace, Peace, but there is no peace. The war is actually begun! The next gale that sweeps from the north will bring to our ears the clash of resounding arms! Our brethren are already in the field! Why stand we here idle? What is it that gentlemen wish? What would they have? Is life so dear, or peace so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of chains and slavery? Forbid it, Almighty God! I know not what course others may take; but as for me, give me liberty or give me death!"

The men in the room gasped for air. It was a hot afternoon, and the furious debate had been even more fiery. And now this? Liberty or death? This man was insane! Already men had dressed as natives and thrown tea over ships. A massacre had happened. What was this world coming to?

Then, something seeming to echo common sense. In fact, it was Common Sense. 

"An army of principles can penetrate where an army of men cannot." 

It was fresh air! It was relief. And yet, to use the words of Miss Clavel, something wasn't right. Trouble was brewing.

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal: that they are endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights..."

Rights. Rights!?! Were these people mad? You couldn't send that to the king of England and hope for applause. Maybe, just maybe, that was exactly the point. 

"One if by land, two if by sea..."

And then he made his famous ride.

"The British are coming! The British are coming! To arms! To arms!"

And it hit a climax. BAM. The shot was heard round the world.

Years later, these people so filled with insanity found themselves so filled with gratitude to the same Creator who endowed them with those inalienable rights. 

"We the People of the United States of America, in order to form a more perfect union, to establish justice, ensure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and to our prosperity, do ordain and establish this Constitution of the United States of America."

 Words are beautiful. They build up kingdoms, they tear down empires. They can unite -- and they can divide. Aside from God and his Gospel themselves, words are the most powerful beings ever available to mankind. 

I asked you last week to vote on your top choice of topic, and it was an exact three-way tie. You have no idea how much this thrilled me! So, I want to talk to you about all three things you voted on: history, politics, and the Christian life. 

But back to words. As I've said, they have a lot of power. This shows up all over history. Brainstorm with me, if you will. Think about the the biggest events in the last millennium. The Norman Conquest. How did it happen? Well, Harold swore allegiance to William. Then, William took over Britain. Why did it work? Because Harold swore allegiance. Of course, that wasn't the only factor. But it had a whole lot to do with it. What was the impact of it? Britain went under Norman rule, and the face of those isles was changed for good. 

Okay, let's look at, say, the signing of the Magna Carta. How did it happen? First, King John was a jerk. Then, his counselors made him sign a document (made of words) that he would behave himself. Why did it work? Because King John agreed to a set of letters made into words. What was the impact of it? Law was forever changed.

Maybe those are too far away in your mind. Let's keep going. Galileo's view of the universe took precedence over the old world view. How did it happen? Galileo made discoveries, and wrote a book about them. The authorities got mad, dealt with him, and the public eventually got frustrated, and accepted the book. Why did it work? Galileo put his discoveries into some pretty powerful words, to say the least. What was the impact? The world was launched forward toward a universe of astronomy (pun intended). 

Oh, I could go on for hours about it. Maybe it's just because I love words. Or maybe it's because something really is up. Leaders unite people -- with their words. Leaders take on the enemy -- with their words. Leaders don't give up -- because they know their words are true. What was it that made Jesus so impactful, after all? Well, obviously his personhood and the Holy Spirit, but I think many people would agree it was words that drove his force. His words were true. They divided the world at large, but they brought the Church together. They cast out demons. They gave people hope and a chance to believe in something real, worth fighting for...to the point of death. Jesus' words were powerful. 

And his words are the only thing that will change this broken nation, this torn up world. I've spent the week at a missions conference, and the single thing that the speaker focused on was the kingdom. To me, the kingdom is achieved through words. Do actions speak louder than words? Of course! Act like a follower of Christ. But speak like one, too. The Gospel is built on relationships, and relationships are built on words. 

But why does all this matter? And what in the world does it have to do with politics, anyway? First, let me tell you what it doesn't mean: it does not mean America should become a theocracy. And it also doesn't mean that because relationships are all that matter in the Gospel, you can sit out on politics and let the world go on its course. 

What it does mean is that you have responsibility. I have a responsibility. We are the followers of Christ, and we need to look at the world not with a top-down approach, but not with a bottom-up approach, either. We need to have a bigger-picture perspective. We're here on this world for a reason: to glorify God, and to bring his kingdom, which we will enjoy forever. In light of that, our words need to start moving. 

My dream is to see a restored America. A free America, where people are free both in the socio-political sense, and also free in Christ. A nation of people so in love with God, and so heartily embracing freedom. Words built this nation. Words got us to where we are. Words can move us forward. And we can be a driving force in spreading the Gospel to all the corners of the earth. A beacon of freedom, where people will come to see what is different. Why, someday in the distant future, we will be a nation that doesn't kill those who have just as much a right to live as we do. Why we let people worship publicly. Why people can make posts like this one and not be arrested. Why we're thrilled about the reign of Christ.

Whatever your dream, I challenge you to consider three things: First, is it working for the glory of the Lord? Maybe you have a yacht and three houses. Maybe you live in a shack. But does it glorify God and work for his kingdom's sake? Second, is your dream going to bring restoration, or destruction? Finally, are your words making your dream happen? Or are they leaving it hanging, hoping someone else will find the words for you?

Words matter. It is in vain to extenuate the matter. We the People believe it.

Meridian

Monday, February 18, 2013

You choose!

It's been a little while since I've posted anything, and I've noticed my drafts piling up around here...so today I'm going to let *you* choose what *you* want to read. On the sidebar you'll notice a nice little poll. So, if you happen to see this while the poll is available, select your top choice for a future post, and I'll do my best to make that happen.

I look forward to writing you soon. :)

Meridian

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Barbara Spooner: A Lady of Wisdom

"Blessed is the one who finds wisdom, and the one who gets understanding, for the gain from her is better than gain from silver and her profit better than gold."

She was young. She was beautiful. She was rich. And she...was a Methodist. Not a Methodist in the sense in which we think of Methodists today, but rather, someone separate from the Church of England. Someone radically in love with the Lord.

Barbara had been raised in typical upper-class English home. She was the third of ten children, and the daughter of a wealthy banker. Her family was nominally Christian, under the Church of England. But Barbara, only twenty, found this faith wasn't enough. In fact, the Church of England didn't seem to have any faith. Suddenly, Barbara left the life of parties and gambling which she had used to practice. She sought the Lord and found him. Against the wishes of her family, she restrained herself from returning to her former life, and became a Methodist. 

The trouble her family gave her about it was great, but she found that her faith was greater. Many times she must have turned to the Lord, considering the incredible pressures she experienced from her family, friends, and the surrounding culture. She concerned herself instead with the Lord, taking refuge in him. And, as she grew in her knowledge of the Lord, she grew in wisdom. 

Barbara became known within her circles as something of a devout woman: she prayed at regular intervals, began to learn the Scriptures, and committed herself to knowing as much about God as she could. In the meantime, she heard of a man named William, who was said to be just as devout as she, also against his expected behavior. He was well-known, and as it turned out, Barbara had spent much time working in favor of his causes. She was a talented speaker and people-person, so she had done much for social advancement. Now, "pulling a Ruth," Barbara wrote to William, informing him of her need for "spiritual advice."  Within five weeks, the two were wed as Mr. and Mrs. William Wilberforce.

Much rejoicing entailed. It is said that the couple could not stop talking about their sheer joy, they were so in love with the Lord and with each other.

Throughout their married life, William and Barbara enjoyed many blessings, but not without trial. Indeed, it was Barbara who encouraged William in his frequent health failings. It was Barbara who gently rebuked him when he gave up, and it was Barbara who picked up when he could go no further. She sought to advance and protect her husband, her children, and her culture. William frequently recorded in his journal the many ways in which Barbara spoke the wisdom of the Lord to him, and often he wrote of his desire to be "worthy of her."

When, after decades of fighting, William Wilberforce finally abolished the slave trade, he attributed his strength to the Lord, and to his "beloved Barbara." Together, they had won their earthly reward.

Barbara Spooner Wilberforce was an incredible example of a wise woman. She practiced wise restraint by turning from her former ways. In the face of disapproval, she found her approval in the Lord, using her skills to glorify Him. God blessed her, through her wisdom, with William, and he with her, and there was great rejoicing for both. And in her wisdom, she was a source of strength to her family, giving the entire nation of England a great reward. Now, an even greater reward is hers in the presence of our Savior, for whom she had the deepest love of all. 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Sin, Sanctification, and Ultimate Salvation


        “For just one bite, the First Soul’s tears were spilt five thousand years and more, yearning for him who suffered in His own flesh for that guilt.”  (Purgatorio, 574, 33.61-63) So Beatrice wisely speaks the gospel into the mind of her humble follower, Dante Alighieri. Throughout his masterful Divine Comedy, Dante paints a picture of sin, sanctification, and ultimate salvation. Biblically and classically, these three words are defining concepts of the process by which humankind is transformed into holykind. From Aristotle to Dante to Lewis, the pattern of redemption is undeniable. This essay will seek to examine the three aforementioned s’s of purification, and walk through several examples of this, in classical, modern, and Biblical literature.
Dante Alighieri is going through midlife crisis.  “Midway in our life’s journey, I went astray from the straight road and woke to find myself alone in a dark wood… Its very memory gives a shape to fear.” (Inferno, 16, 1.1-3, 1.5) At the height of his political and literary career, the pilgrim finds himself utterly lost and enveloped in darkness. All sorts of things have contributed to this, from pride to bitterness, envy to fear – many of which Dante is unaware. This isn’t the first time in literature that such darkness appears, however. In his nearly infamous work, The Republic, Plato gives an example of the darkness that all people – not just the politicians or gangsters – must plod through until they reach some kind of light. “Imagine an underground chamber like a cave… In this chamber are men who have been prisoners there since they were children, their legs and necks being so fastened that they can only look straight ahead of them and cannot turn their heads.” (241, book VII.7.514) Recognizing the problem that humans have, Plato defined the parameters of the crisis Dante would experience: while in darkness, man can only see shadows of reality. But, no diagnosis is complete without specification of the symptoms. Here, Aristotle appears on the scene, ready to tackle one of the biggest underlying issues in human disparity: lack of self-restraint. “For it is clear that the person who acts incontinently does not think that it is right before he finds himself in the situation.” (169, book VII.ii.30-32)  In context, what Aristotle is referring to is any person who sees an immoral act as wrong, then inches up to it until he is so far in, he cannot get out. This person, to put it in Plato’s terms, has bound himself up in his chains, and is utterly stuck, whether knowingly or not. Dante’s crisis is a sudden awareness of his total darkness and moral depravity, an awareness all men and women must face in the course of their lives.
The philosophers of the past were not the only people to see this problem. In his Screwtape Letters, C.S. Lewis reveals the way in which a certain young “patient” is kept in darkness, only just becoming aware that he is surrounded by it. An older demon writes to his nephew, “Thanks to processes which we set at work in them centuries ago, they find it all but impossible to believe in the unfamiliar while the familiar is before their eyes. Keep pressing home on him the ordinariness of things.” (4, letter 1) Often, this is all it takes for humans, whether it is Dante or some modern figure, to become numb to the reality of a perpetually ensuing umbra. It is easy (in darkness, of course) to perceive this notion of a cave as something naïve. Yet the Bible itself preaches the truly depraved condition of mankind in several passages, both in the Old and New Testaments. A prime example of the former is found in Isaiah 55:2. In this verse, the Lord questions Israel on why she has chosen cheap replicas of his great goodness, rather than seeking Him. “Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy?” (All Scripture references ESV). Again, in the New Testament, God speaks through Paul in Romans 7:10-11. “The very commandment that promised life proved to be death to me. For sin, seizing an opportunity through the commandment, deceived me and through it killed me.”  Confirming Aristotle’s message about lack of self-restraint, Paul points all this darkness and disparity back to a single word: sin.
Fortunately, Dante isn’t going to be stuck in midlife crisis forever. With a heavenly mandate, Virgil appears, taking Dante through the pits of hell, and on up Mount Purgatory. At the top of purgatory, Virgil vanishes, leaving Beatrice, Dante’s constant love, to guide him through heaven. Before he can enter, however, Dante is drilled by Beatrice, and forced to come face-to-face with the reality of his sin problem. “Speak up! Speak up! Is it true? To such a charge your own confession must give evidence,” Beatrice demands. In terror and remorse, Dante whispers, “The things of the world’s day, false pleasures and enticements, turned my steps...” Condemningly and at the same time lovingly, Beatrice replies, “Had you been silent, or denied what you confess, your guilt would still be known to Him from Whom no guilt may hope to hide.” (Purgatorio, 554-555, canto 31.5-6, 34-39) Such is sin, and such is the process by which all sanctification must begin: confession of sins by inspiration of the Holy Spirit. From there, the Lord, already aware of what has been confessed, begins to purify. Once again, a parameter of this is defined by Plato’s cave. Speaking of the people in bondage, Plato begins, “Suppose one of them were let loose, and suddenly compelled to stand up and turn his head and look and walk towards the fire; all these actions would be painful and he would be too dazzled to see properly the objects of which he used to see the shadows.” (242, book VII.7.515d) Sanctification, that is the purification believers undergo through the Holy Spirit, is often painful and overwhelming. Yet, as God gradually does his work, man slowly loses his grime and become more Christ-like. Plato recognizes a similar process of step-by-step revelation in his cave analogy: “First he would find it easiest to look at shadows, next at the reflections of men and other objects in water, and later on at the objects themselves.” (242, book VII.7.516b) In his Ethics, Aristotle lists proper judgment as one of the “symptoms” of sanctification. “An indication of this [maturing] is the common view that the equitable [man will choose] to judge sympathetically in his judgments and that [it] is equitable to judge sympathetically in certain circumstances. And sympathetic judgment is a correct judgment that decides what is equitable; a correct judgment being one that arrives at the truth.” (160, book VI.xi.21-26) Sanctification produces a purified will, one wherein the conscience is more sensitive to right and wrong.
Lewis’ patient was last left in darkness, to be deceived by demons. Now, he has seen the light and the Holy Spirit is at work in him. Lewis paints a picture of this redeemed will and clarified sight, from the perspective of a horrified demon: “He [God] wants to kill their animal self-love as soon as possible; but it is His long-term policy, I fear, to restore to them a new kind of self-love – a charity and gratitude for all selves, including their own; when they have really learned to love their neighbors as themselves, they will be allowed to love themselves as their neighbors.”  (71-72, letter 14) All these examples of transformational sanctification are glorious, and demonstrate the life-altering nature of God’s work in a believer’s heart. However, none can state it better than the Bible itself. Later in the Isaiah passage, God says this to Israel: “…let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the Lord, that he may have compassion on him, and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.” (55:7) Sanctification involves deep repentance, and deep grace, raising a battle cry against sin, as Romans 7:22-23 states clearly: “For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.” A battle goes on in the process of sanctification, but as Dante and countless other believers discovered, it doesn’t last forever.
“Then as a sweet soul gladly shapes its own good will to the will of others, without protest, as soon as any sign has made it know, so the sweet maid, taking me by the hand and saying in a modest voice to Statius, ‘Come you with him,’ obeyed the good command.” (Purgatorio, 576-577, 33.130-135) In some of the last lines of Purgatory, Dante is about to be led by Beatrice into the glorious realm of Heaven. Only now that his will has been conformed to the will of the Lord, and his sins have been purged, can he go forth to see this glory. Seeing glory isn’t something that only Dante described: as with sin and sanctification, Plato defines the borders of seeing glory, and gives a description of just what that might look like. “The thing he would be able to do last would be to look directly at the sun itself, and gaze at it without using reflections in water or any other medium, but as it is in itself.” (242-243, book VII.7.516b) Seeing God is the ultimate climax of all that sin’s suffering, and sanctification’s sanitizing power, end up in for the Christian believer. God is the single thing that must constantly be looked to, and yet the very thing that the human eye shall last see, praising him for all eternity. When men can do this, they have, by the grace of God, achieved Aristotle’s definition of prudence: “Thus prudence must be a true state, reasoned and capable of action in the sphere of human goods…Yet it is not merely a rational state, as is indicated by the fact that such a state can be forgotten, but prudence cannot.” (151, book VI.v.20-21,28-30) Prudence, and eternity with Yahweh, is ultimately where the Gospel leads us.
In the very end of Lewis’ Screwtape Letters, the “Patient” finally (to the angst of the demons) sees God. “He saw not only Them; he saw Him. This animal, this thing begotten in a bed, could look on Him. What is blinding, suffocating fire to you, is now cool light to him, is clarity itself, and wears the form of a Man.” (174.31) This image of clarifying, eternal salvation and peace in Christ is only made greater in the Holy Bible. Throughout Isaiah 55, much suffering and refinement is depicted by the Lord, but at the end of the passage, the final goal is revealed in such glorious words, they are undeniable: “For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress; instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle; and it shall make a name for the Lord, an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.” (55:12-13) As if this wasn’t all exhilarating, the Lord speaks through Paul in the opening and closing words of Romans 8: “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death…For I am convinced that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (8:1-2, 38-39)
Throughout Scripture and classical literature, three very clear stages are set forward in the process of being made holy: sin, sanctification, and ultimate salvation. Sin is that point at which man has a totally depraved nature; sanctification the place in which the Holy Spirit works to make the Christian believer more likened to Christ, with a purified will and a renewed ability to see the light. Ultimate salvation is the time at which the work of Christ is fully realized in the believer, made prudent through grace, who sees and experiences the fullness of the glory of God. When Dante hit midlife crisis, and became aware of his sin, readers can be thankful that Beatrice didn’t let him get stuck there. For, in a beautiful slur of poetry, Dante finishes his journey in Purgatory, being sanctified, with these words: “I came back from those holiest waters new, remade, reborn, like a sun-wakened tree that spreads new foliage to the Spring dew in sweetest freshness, healed of Winter’s scars; perfect, pure, and ready for the Stars.” (Purgatorio, 577, Book 33.142-146)
















Works Cited
Alighieri, Dante. The Divine Comedy: Inferno, Purgatorio, Paradiso. Ciardi, John (translator). New York, NY: New American Library, 2003.
Aristotle. The Nicomachean Ethics. Thomson, J.A.K. (translator). London, England: Penguin Group, 2004
Lewis, C.S. The Screwtape Letters. New York, NY: HarperCollins, 2001
Plato. The Republic. Lee, Desmond (translator). London, England: Penguin Group, 2007
Scripture quotations are from The Holy Bible, English Standard Version (ESV), copyright 2001 by Crossway Bibles, a publishing ministry of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved.